LOst

I want to say alot
i have my mind swirling with thoughts
my eyes would want to burst with tears
but to scared to go out
to face the facts that is so random in my head
To stand up to what i believe
To let myself return to my old self that once it had been me
to scream
shout
talk
whisper
I'm forced to fake a smile a laugh everyday of my life
One thing would save me
and you know what
you know what that thing that would save me
Just one damn thing
that will help me intercourse with myself
why cant you understand?
*tear*
This is life to me in the meantime
and here i say again
there is one thing that would save me
and you know what that thing is