No longer depressed

thanks to family i am no longer depressed..
anyway how are u bloggers i would like to hear from you ALL!!

Depressed

Thats what I am feeling lately 

Depressed

I don't feel like eating 

I don't feel like talking

I don't feel myself

I feel like crying

its not me i know

but I'm  depressed

for many reasons

that i cant count or reason out

I claim that I'm doing a diet and that I'm sick but for real I'm depressed

p.s: people who know me don't discuss this with me for my own reasons!

random #2

Random1:i think u should get used to me once im here and posting everywhere and once you will forget i even exist (isnt that how most of us are like??)

Random2: anyway i had been away for no reason so there is no reason to explain that, just being lazy as usual!

Random 3: uni, well there is nothing much in it just that i go from 8 to 12 oclock 3 days of the week i have a 2 hour break and because i come and go with my brother i have no freedom in going here and there so i found this Art add about if you like to draw and something like that go to the "marsam" and by the time i saw that i was like yeah thats what im gonna do since im alone and have nothing to do except read from my many story book collections so i went straight to find that marsam and when i came in i found a guy with ghetra and 3gal and the usual kuwaiti outfit right infront of me and i was like "Where is Dr. flan elflany" and he nods his head indicating that its him and me for assurance i say " are you Dr. flan elflany" he says " walla ana estath bs inshaAllah dr 3ala eydainch" me as the usual me i dont say anything and just look stunned @@!! anyways i let that pass and i ask about how things happen around her he said that i just submit a cope your schedule and then you paint here and everything is available right here just come and paint whenever ur free and available and want to paint and i was of course i was psyched about that how could i not be?? filling out empty time and i actually have no interest in making friends for my own personal reasons which alot of people find it odd to believe! but there is one thing that i was worried about which is that im the only one who enrolled to this thing and it was only him and i in this "marsam" i was really worried not cz of those things that u think of but because of awkwardness that is gonna be between us cz im not the kind of girl who talks with guys and joke with them and adeg elmeyana (even with girls only the ones that im comfortable with) so i started by going to the class and i gave him the impressions that i have nothing to do with you im here just to paint and nothing else so i was silent while i painted and sometimes i listened to some music i have downloaded into my mobile and he understood even though he told me things like " there is hot water and tea bags if u want to drink tea but there isnt any cup if u want bring" or " use this plate for painting its better" and i would simply nod or give him an ok for that and maybe a thanks in between (of course he said it in a friendly way). After that i think he got sick of me being silent and alone all the time he told me to tell my friends (which i dont have) that there is an art place if they are interested. and i gave him the usual answer and of course i didnt dare to tell him that i dont have any (btw when i say i dont have friends i mean close friends that i hang out with and in College of Arts). anyway the days came by and it was the same until some girls enrolled in the class too and they were like 4-5 that are friends and they come by bus that they are in the univ since practically dawn and they have alot of free time so by that time the "marsam" was swirling with them alot of noise and whatever and they were like talking and joking with the teacher and he liked it u was even calling one of them as a joke Elrasama elflaniya i think he liked it that they were like that i guess he didnt like my silent treatment but then who would?? and he kinda let himself think that by alot of girls are here now that he is allowed to talk to me an he was like " do you have any problems in ur painting?" and because i did i told him and he gave me suggestions and i was like what do u think if i did this and he did suggest more and basically didnt like my ideas in some ways and i was down for a while cz he was like do this and i didnt want to do what he said yes i followed a bit of his instructions but i dont have to do what he told me in all its my painting anyway he then told me do what u think you feel like doing and it will appear then if its good or not and so far today i saw it was good i liked it and im almost done!

Random4: im thinking about marriage alot lately i dont know why but is been in my mind, and do to my fantasy mind i keep imagining and i know in the end im gonna be disappointed like i usually am! i just hope things would resolve themselves soon!

Random5: well im actually running out of stuff to say and i wanna keep them for the other posts, umm... do i actually have anything to say.. and the answer is no sooo
tootles
An HS senior to go!


p.s: did you miss me??
p.ss: u could contact me on my new email seeratq8iya@hotmail.com

How is it to be a freshmen!?

So the vacation is over and we bloggers go back to our duties of blogging ( btw i blame it on twitter im so addicted to twittering you could see that on my blog ;pP)!!
So How was my days in college so far go??
well i just attended two days of college and by the time you read this it might be the 3rd day i attend! in which i didnt have anyone to drop me there but i was really thrilled to go for the first day! so i did be absent on my first two days and spent it sleeping..
I had a lecture at 9 while my brother had a lecture at 8 and traffic got us stuck for a while and by the time we got there it was 8:06 and he dropped me at sharee3a so he could catch up with his lecture and of course me as a newcomer didnt know where the hell would i find my college "college of arts" so i was roaming around and i texted my frndz cousin, which my the way is in the same college as me, and told her i was lost so i walked and walked and walked and the poor girl had to search for me and it was madness, and the situation was scary there were no students just workers and guards and i was scared the shit out of me!!!
so when i found at last my frnds cousin it was 8:30 and i was soaked in my own sweat (pardon me) , so she (jezaha Allah 5air) was roaming all around trying to find my lecture which was moved and at last we found it in a place which could hardly be known that there is even a class there!
She left me there to get into class coz it will start like in about 10 minutes and left telling me " dont get lost" (LOOOL the pour girl was worried for me) ;pP
i got in and the Dr was scary in her silence you could feel the vibes of terror sending it to her students (obviously i hated her) and she wore shades in the class, and while giving the boring lecture about " jamaliyat eladab" (and you could sense its not my thing at ALL) she shouted to us (mitna8bat) and said take those off i dont have a mustache and whoever wants to wear those shall get out of the lecture but of course we had to obey her coz our marks is within her hand!
and when i asked her how shall i get an A she answered by being in the library and reading about EVerytime!! ya3ny bele5te9ar taby 6aleba mu3jezaa!! SO thats Dr el3ayooz elsham6aa2 in my list!
and then i have a break for an hour and then another lecture which is 141 english and it turns out with most likely appearing is an indian Dr that is really pissed off by late students but she is like how shall i put this? she is ok you can deal with her and appears to be yen8a9 3alaiha! but she doesnt let you go out of the lecture only on the end of the lecture even though if she is already finished a long time ago she exactly doing the system of High School teachers! and after that i had the honor to meet the blogger Hanansweetypiee
and then i had to go home and was on a mission to search the gate that my brother wants me to be at cz oho ma yabe eyee mn my gate coz it takes a lot of time and i searched like crazy and was back and forth asking people all around until i thought my head is gonna explod and i was gonna faint ( i was 9ayma too) i havent slept only for an hour! and i was this close to crying! when at last i met my sister-in-law in the cafeteria and we went to the gate together!! and that was the end of my 1st day!!
day two was a lot easier then day 1 my brother dropped me at the gate that we went out of the day before and i dont know how but i managed to find my college and go by the right path and of course we were late coz of the traffic and we got there about 8 something and i had a lecture at 8 exact so i went the searching mission to find the class and went there and here and at last i found it at 8:15 so i asked a girl to make sure if thats the right class she said yes but she kicked out a girl before you so i was like ok ill just ditch the class instead of being humiliated in front of the class!
after that i roamed around the building until i decided to go to the library and i found a book that the Dr told us to read i was going to check it out but WHo knew?? you need a library card so im going tomorrow to do me a library card i just needed a personal picture and i will make me one, after that i sat with Hanansweetypie talked a little until it was our time for a lecture and i had introduction to computer and i was like early and sitting waiting for the Dr and he came in and was like a good spirited Dr who joked and gave advices for life i was like feeling happy and if i could i wouldve hugged him for being the good Dr in the whole course, and actually he is the only Dr that i actually am looking forward to attend his lectures and its a shame i only have 2 classes a week with him he did really lighten my day! i wish there were more Drs like him that joke around and teach at the same time!
and of course the usual 141 subject that i have everyday and the boring subject of toddlers grammar!
and that how my 2 days in college went !!!
i just it was as easy as my HS i mean i didnt study that much and i got Great marks!!! and now i dont even know what i am supposed to do!!
Hope you liked my stories!!
An HS senior to go!!

سوره النور

My favorite Aya in the Whole 'Holy Quran' in 9ourat Al-nour aya 35 Just look at it and feel it:
اللَّهُ نُورُ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ مَثَلُ نُورِهِ كَمِشْكَاةٍ فِيهَا مِصْبَاحٌ الْمِصْبَاحُ فِي زُجَاجَةٍ الزُّجَاجَةُ كَأَنَّهَا كَوْكَبٌ دُرِّيٌّ يُوقَدُ مِن شَجَرَةٍ مُّبَارَكَةٍ زَيْتُونِةٍ لَّا شَرْقِيَّةٍ وَلَا غَرْبِيَّةٍ يَكَادُ زَيْتُهَا يُضِيءُ وَلَوْ لَمْ تَمْسَسْهُ نَارٌ نُّورٌ عَلَى نُورٍ يَهْدِي اللَّهُ لِنُورِهِ مَن يَشَاء وَيَضْرِبُ اللَّهُ الْأَمْثَالَ لِلنَّاسِ وَاللَّهُ بِكُلِّ شَيْءٍ عَلِيمٌ

Malaysia Truly Asia

At laastt here are the picture to my trip to Malaysia!!!!
Kuwait from up still in the sky and the clouds are outstanding! Malaysia from up! Fountain show! A cruise! A Butterfly in butterfly garden! More of butterfly graden!! Fish Spa!! AmaZiInG!! A'Famosa Resort!!! Going to Genting on the Telefrek, to the Theme park and there is Go-Carts! Malaysian traditional clothes all made by hand and all are one of a kind there is no two in the world!! Well i shall say good bye for now to after Eid! Eidkum Mubarak!
An HS senior to go!

Wedding canceled

My Friend has canceled her wedding so she could travel before
College, but she is making an 'este8bal' this monday, so I went today to
Buy me a dress click the following link to see it (http://twitpic.com/gkdun)
What do u think about it??

An HS senior to go

Send it on!

Since my Macbook is jammed and I can't post anything with pics cz I'm posting with my BB, Ill leave u with the lyrics of Disney channel which included Disney stars, Miley cyrus, Demi Lovato, Selena gomez, and jonas brothers! A song about charity! Till my Macbook is fixed asta lavesta!:
A word's just a word
'Til you mean what you say
And Love isn't love
'Til you give it away
We've all got a give
Yeah something to give to make a change

Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make it Strong
Shine a Light and Send it On

Just smile and the world will smile along with you
That small act of love
Is spent for one to become two
If we take the chances
To change circumstances
Imagine all we can do
If we...

Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make it Strong
Shine a Light and Send it On
Send it on

There's Power in all of the choices we make
So I'm starting now there's not a moment to wait
A word's just a word
'Til you mean what you say
And love isn't love
'Til you give it away

Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make it Strong
Shine a Light and Send it On

On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will help things start
Make it Strong
Shine a Light and Send it On
Shine a Light and Send it On
Shine a Light and Send it On
An HS senior to go

Randoms #1

So now i decided to do some Randoms like smarties( ur my idol now hehe just joking) ( and i know there is no such thing called Randoms with an 'S' coz the red thingy keeps appearing under the RANDOMS)

random1: i'm no longer in a bad mood (hip hip hooraay!!!)

random2: So i wanted to register my lectures for College of Arts so i ask here and there for what mwad im taking since i want to major in english since i was raised in private schools and love soo much english and english novels, anyway, i took the best lecturers names and i told my brother these what i wanted since im off traveling to Malaysia and i cant register, so my brother goes on that day wlena7asa w elnethala ( w wain ethnk ya jo7a, w 3amek a9ma5 " and yes i said everything i know that is related to that matter") says to my brother that he cant get in (i dont know why?) so he had to lie and say that he is my daddy 3ad ohma 9adegooh cz o5oy maAshallah 3alaih he is only 3 yrs older but looks like a 30 yrs old man ( so i guess i have to call him Dad from now on LOL) and they let him in w he enters and sees almost all the sho3ab emsakara and then they put me every lecture in a different man6a8a ( shayfyny superman a5af??!! etha license ma 3ndy shlon bg3ad ala7g 3ala kel mada) so my brother i mean my daddy for the mean time until the story finshes says no i want to change it and he changes it all into one man6a8a and one mabnaa (YAAAY lucky meeee).. so i go to this Forum that has something to do with the drs and professors ya3ny ohma zainen wela la2! so i go and check my dr and i find that i have two doctors that are gashreen w ma ya3jebhum el3ajab w elmu9eeba elkubra both yakrohoon elmitna8been ( ya3ny ana shasawy ebrou7y) and since im a freshman i cant change it! bs the funny thing i dont care not at all even though its my first course, ill try my best and if they give me a good mark il7imdellah and if they dont ill ask for a C-and ill redo the lecture with better drs! and voila merci!!
random3: so the best thing in rama'9an on T.V. that i'm watching now is "Om elbnat" for Su3ad 3abdAllah, and "Mashahed" for nabeel el3awathy! and the rest is just shit!

random4: So my friend is getting married after Eid and i neither have a dress any recommendations? ( i need a +size) and i dont have a present for her any recommendations???

random5: follow me on Twitter on Anoosa91 ( since this one has been hacked i made a new one 19Anoosa91)

random6: i want to put some pix for my trip in malaysia but i dont feel like it and i want to post some pix for gothygeekah ( which now stopped her blog until the beginning of freshman year for a fresh start) but i dont feel like it too i mean for now!

random7: so my sister-in-law mother bought me a bag a copy of LV! and i dont wear copies i mean i wear bags from aldo and melano and all kinds of bag but not copies coz of one thing: i dont know the difference between copies and real but other ppl do so i rather not wear copies ( not that i have an original a9lan) so i have this thing that if somebody bought me a present that is wearable i wear alot i like to show people how much is ur present is valuable to me and mu 7asafa sharainalaha shay, its something in me cz ppl also gets so happy and i like to see them happy from me. but on this one i dont know what to do coz you know my sister-in-law is gonna drop me with my brother to college coz we are near each other our college is near to each other and she is gonna notice that i didnt wear her mothers present, my sisters and father says dont wear it if you dont want you said thanks and thats all but i dont feel comfortable about that! so what should i do!! (btw i want to wear a brand bag bs i dont know like i said i hate my father spending money on me! yemken ashtre mn ele3ana :p)
random8: i cant wait for college i want to live the experience yallla im tooooooooooo excited!!! heck did you feel that excited when u are just about to enter college???

random9: knt bagol shay ba3ad bs nesait shno, bs mara7 atthakar wala azeed shwaitain mn 3ndy la2na elyoum gargety wayyd hehe :) fa ba5aleekum ma3a gargeety w basawy inshAllah random thany agreg 3alaikum hehe!!!

An HS senior to go btw that will be my signeture from now on hope you like it!

Broken Dreams

Yes I'm back from malaysia but i dont feel now like talking about it!
something today made me tick from the inside it made me want to i dont know be somebody else,
you know when something reminds you of the reality ,...
i dont know i had alot of words to say but now it all vanished ,
ill just leave it a mystery and broken like its title...
maybe ill be able to say it all later on when everything comes to a sentence in my mind
farewell for now

p.s: i got accepted in college of arts, and Mbark 3alaikum elshahar!
p.s.s: sorry for being such a negative person lately i promise the positive me will come back and hopefully soon!